. and i don't even care if you have girlfriend

I don't really know how to start, i don't even know if you'd spend your time reading this but i'll just say it, i don't want to keep it to myself no more.


Dear smartypants;
                              first of all, i'm sorry, you know, for being a bitch, an idiot, a stupid, a dumb, a whore and however you think of me now (just in case you remember me). I can't even think about you without a tear, you're in my mind everytime i see or live something we've been through. I'm not even in love with you, i'm in love with a guy from here, but you're still part of my heart. I really miss you, i really miss our long talks, and i acually miss you so much that you wouldn't even notice.
I'm sorry for lying to you for a long time, and TWICE. i know you wouldn't forgive me and you will not, and even if you do, we both know you shouldn't.  i'd be so thankfull if you do, i'd thank you 1OOOOO times, but you don't even talk to me or just know about my existence.


I'll say it forever; 
                           I'M SORRY FOR BEING A BITCH.


i don't know what else to say so,
                                               I L O V E Y O U.


♥ much love, your "cousin".